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Assalamualaikum .. (mood sedeh)

hey babes/dudes .. oke tbe2 plak mlm2 ni i nk updte blog .. mood x bp nk oke mlm ni .. seriusly nk menanges ..  mane x nye .. bile dok sorg2 dlm bilik tbe2 kpale hotak ni msty terfikirkn sume problem yg i kne lately ni .. ad je yg x kne ape yg aq wt lately ni .. lpas satu prob dtg satu lg dtg .. ntah bile nk settle pon x tau .. (flashback) -kalo dlu bile ad prob bole cite kt mmy .. ape sume kt mmy .. ni la ssh kalo xd sibling pompan kn .. nk hrp kn sibling laki .. kdng2 je la dorg nk dgr .. but its oke la .. i still syg abg2 i jgak .. but now i bole lpas kn prasaan sdeh, gembire, marah, dan sewaktu dgnnye kt blog je .. since mmy dh meniggal everythin had change .. i felt like i ad kt dunie yg laen .. sunyi je .. xd org kt keliling .. xd tmpt nk mengadu .. sometyme bile tgok org laen ad dgn fmily dorg i jelez sgt2 .. knp i xbole dpt cm ape yg dorg ad tu .. emm .. mybe nseb i xsame cm dorg kn .. its oke .. i bole trime .. nseb sume laen2 kn .. mybe nseb i x brape baek cm org laen .. so hargai lah org sekeliling yg masih ad .. (stopflashbak) .. oke .. then now i x tau knp prasaan i skrg dh bcampur aduk .. rmai org kate knp prangai i skang laen ? x mcm dulu .. dulu slalu gelak2 .. bile org badmood bole wt org 2 senyum balik .. act i pon x tau knp .. mybe 2 sume effect yg i dpt since ad byk prob ni .. yg i tau skang ni i mmg suke alone .. i suke simpan sume mslh i sorg2 .. i xnk share gn org laen .. dlu yes i share sume prob i gn mmbe2 gn fmily .. but not now .. i lg suke bwak diri sorg2 .. n yg i pling sdeh .. sume (xd la sume sbenanye kn) org yg i knal makin bnci kt i .. i pn x tau sbb ape .. mybe i ad wt slh kt dorg kn n i je yg x prasan .. sory lah korg kalo i ad wt slah silap kt korg yg bole wt korg saket aty .. kalo i ad wt slah tego2 la i .. i ni manusie biase .. slalu wt slah .. kengkadang tu bile teringat mmbe2 sndri bnci kt i .. sumpah i kate i nk nanges .. bile mlm je sblom nk tdo msty trfikir knp dlm mse yg singkt je rmai yg jaoh kn diri dr i .. i pon x tau sbb ape korg wt cm 2 .. i tau korg ad alasan kn knp wt cm 2 .. tp xpe la .. mmg naseb i cm ni kn .. xbole nk hepy .. i pon dh x tau nk wt cmne lg .. ni sume takdir .. kite xbole lwn tkdir kn .. i trime ape adenye .. xbole la kalo idop nk senang je kn .. msty ad ssh jgak kn .. i trime ape je yg org nk wt kt i .. nk kate ape pon kate la .. sbb i dh x kesah lg .. mmg slalu kne cmni .. mmg slame ni sume org tgok i ni terok .. tp xpe .. i pon xnk tmbh dose i yg dh sedie ade menimbun ni .. biya la i dgn tuhan je yg tau aty gn prasaan i .. korg ad mulot kn ? so korg ad hak nk mengate org laen .. biya la i sorg2 yg simpan sume rse 2 .. korg x kne kn so korg x rse ape yg i rse .. seriusly i wanna back to my old life .. but life must be go on ryte .. skrg i jz nk tros pndg ke dpn .. xnk patah balik lg .. ape yg nk jd lpas ni i trime je .. sume org berhak dpt peluang kedua .. so i hope i'll get it 2nd chance .. xd sape yg dpt ubah naseb sndri melainkn dri sndri .. so i must hve 2 believe my self .. oke .. act i nk cite psal sum1 yg dh wt i trase aty .. but its oke .. i xnk cite la .. nty ad yg saket aty n i dpt dose .. utk mengelakkan dr prkre cm 2 jd .. i decide 2 keep my mouth .. oke la .. cukop la smpai cni dlu .. perlu kn mse utk menenang kn diri sblm start sem .. MUHASABAH DIRI .. JUST BELIEVE UR SELF .. see ya 2 all reader(s) .. 

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By : Deesya Javier's

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